Sometimes you have to sacrifice to gain. This week I began to fast for the Lord because all I’ve ever done is make a thousand mistakes yet he’s redeemed me everytime. This last mistake was quite terrible, & id normally revert to regret and shame, but this time God but on my heart to fast. Now I’ve never really fasted, well at least not successfully. So I knew this would be a challenge. After I sinned for the hundredth time I knew I had to do something different to turn from my selfish, ignorant ways. God loves us so much that he’d forgive us till our very last breath, he cleansess our mind and body. So what is a simple sacrifice of food or a habit of ours to merely compensate for all the wrong we’ve ever done to him. This is my second day of fasting and though it’s very difficult I’ve never had so much peace of mind, & I swear God is speaking to me clearer than ever. Sometimes God allows sin to happen to bring us unto salvation, & grant us new beginnings. Sometimes all Gods wants is to see if we are truly willing to sacrifice, yet he sacrificed his son so that we would be able to come to him and allow him to wash away all our sins.
Where do we draw the line? God gives us so many chances, each and every day sin after sin, and then some always issuing us more get out of jail free cards even though we don’t deserve it. It’s get to a point where we as humans abuse our free will by choosing sin. I’ve realized going back and forth, back and forth, back and forth is like poison to our spirits. It throws and shifts our whole equilibrium off, and when things start happening that’s not in our best interest, we get upset and call on God even though it was our own doing. Sin is an addiction like none other. Better yet sin is addiction, it is the clinging of bad spirits and habits that ultimately aim to destroy us. Time after time I’ve built myself up spiritually, only to fall weak at the hands of temptation, letting myself down every time. By the grace of God I love that he loves me unconditionally, and will continue to forgive and strengthen me all of my days. Because of this grace we take God for granted, I’ve done it so many times, I feel as if I’ve used up all of my get out of jail free cards. God is a forgiving God, but we as his children have to take charge and cut ourselves off from sin. We have to really want to dig deep inside to figure out what is causing us to easily fall off track, to turn away from righteousness. This past year I’ve been battling some heavy demons inside of myself, when in seclusion I would be strong as a rock, but when around others I would easily fall in temptation. Each time I would tell myself you have to fight harder! Soon enough I found this as a repeat of the same ole record. Deep down inside I know that my spirit so desperately wants to be free of this sin, she screams to me at times for me to stop hurting myself. So the question is how do we stop these demons dead in their tracks? How can we just throw in the towel and walk away? We owe to it God to make that much of a sacrifice especially since he continually does that for us everyday! Of course it’s easier said than done, but God has the power to strengthen us to fight against these demons we’re consumed by. As 2017 is taking place this is a great time to look into yourself and recognize what’s hurting you, & ask God to remove it from your spirit. Sometimes we carry so much baggage we don’t even realize how light our spirit really is. God knows our faults and our weaknesses and what I’ve realized is that we can’t just stop ourselves from sin, we have to allow God to come in and block out our transgressions. We are weak but in the lord we have all power. Shake yourself of these negative energies, people, habits, addictions, hurt, confusion, remorse, regret, etc and allow God to work. All God wants to see is that there is a fight in you! We have to continue to build ourselves up stronger each time we fall, so we may stand strong against the enemy and finally win the war. Victory is inside of every last one of us, and recognizing our downfalls is the first step to walking into a new life.