April showers bring May Flowers 🌻

Greetings all!

Today is April 1st, not only is it considered April Fool’s Day, but it is a start to a new month, and a new cycle. As the weather breaks, what are some things, that you can manipulate and edit within yourself to prosper in this season? What do you want to see manifest this month/year? What are some things you want to remove, going into the new month? This is an ideal time to brainstorm and affirm whatever it is that you want to come to life. Eh, we have our trials and tribulations, but we were created to conquer everything we face. Don’t let ANY obstacles stand in the way of your new blessings. I wish you all a blessed, healthy, wealthy, prosperous, uplifting month ahead!

Love you guys!

-Sidneymcqueen 🌻

Love Internal

Love is something you can’t see.

Love is something no one can take away.

See you loved me with your eyes.

I loved you with my heart.

I despised my self love, to give you all I had.

My love wasn’t enough for you, my love was never enough to begin with.

See you never loved me, you lusted for me.

You loved my corpse, you never loved my heart.

You never knew my spirit.

I unloved myself for you.

You left me empty.

You left me dark.

But it’s my fault, I neglected myself for you, I didn’t see my worth so I continued to suck myself dry.

To all the men I’ve ever loved.

I still love you but I love myself more.

-Sidneymcqueen

22


22 was a very symbolic age for me. It was and is an age of transition. I’ve hurdled over many obstacles this age. I’ve faced many trials and tribulations this age as well. I truly believe this year of 22 led me to meeting my true self. My adult self. This age my mind elevated to a new level of thinking, moving away from my adolescence self. I let go of things at 22, habits and ways that were conflicting my growth. At 22 God woke me up, he helped me to become aware of my self and turn from my ways. 22 I gave up loving him even though I thought it would be one of the most painful things I could do. It didn’t hurt like I thought it would, I think it hurt more to realize that I hurt myself. I was afraid to love myself by letting go. I gained a lot of collateral this year. Not the good collateral but the kind that collects dust and crowds spaces. At 22 I was in a car crash, this crash could have taken my life, but God saved my life at 22. He wiped away all the old in my life. At 22 I met this woman I never knew before, she is calm, confident, and beautiful. She possesses such grace and purpose. At 22 I realized no one can make me happy but myself. At 22 I realized that in order to prosper I would have to let some things go. I wold have to sacrifice in order to gain. 22 is the year of maintaining convictions and turning dreams into reality. 22 was the age of vision. 22 I fell in love with my own words. 22 I recognized my talents, my calling in life. 22 I fell in love with myself. 

I AM

I am beautiful.

I am loved. 

I am smart.

I am strong. 

I am determined. 

I am GOD fearing.

I am kind.

I am selfless. 

I am creative.

I am determined.

I am unique.

I am love. 

I am crazy.

I am vibrant.

I am a finisher.

I am unconventional. 

I am optimistic.

I am a realist. 

I am proud.

I am independent.

I am awesome.

I am powerful.

I am intuitive.

I am a ruby.

I am a flower.

I am success. 

I am famous.

I am words.

I am truth. 

I am ME.

I am evolution.