Today is April 1st, not only is it considered April Fool’s Day, but it is a start to a new month, and a new cycle. As the weather breaks, what are some things, that you can manipulate and edit within yourself to prosper in this season? What do you want to see manifest this month/year? What are some things you want to remove, going into the new month? This is an ideal time to brainstorm and affirm whatever it is that you want to come to life. Eh, we have our trials and tribulations, but we were created to conquer everything we face. Don’t let ANY obstacles stand in the way of your new blessings. I wish you all a blessed, healthy, wealthy, prosperous, uplifting month ahead!
Love you guys!
Love is something you can’t see.
Love is something no one can take away.
See you loved me with your eyes.
I loved you with my heart.
I despised my self love, to give you all I had.
My love wasn’t enough for you, my love was never enough to begin with.
See you never loved me, you lusted for me.
You loved my corpse, you never loved my heart.
You never knew my spirit.
I unloved myself for you.
You left me empty.
You left me dark.
But it’s my fault, I neglected myself for you, I didn’t see my worth so I continued to suck myself dry.
To all the men I’ve ever loved.
I still love you but I love myself more.
Sometimes we allow our emotions to wander.
Often times we think emotions should be free, that is true to an extinct, but in reality emotions must be controlled in order to be synchronized with your physical self. As a woman I have faced many challenges of being able to keep my emotions under raps. Rather it’s a love interest, self esteem, sex, hell even my upcoming period that’s taking a bit long causing me worry, I allow my feelings (emotions) to get the best of me. I’ve realized God has full control of life. Nothing goes outside his universal realm. Stop allowing minuscule things to take over your mind. Once your mind wanders you lose focus, you panic, you think the worst outcome. Find peace in uncertainty, find patience in waiting. Learn to divert your attention to those above. Emotions are powerful spiritual energies, a combustion of molecules and frequencies. Very delicate energy that needs to be governed as opposed to freely eradicating. When in a fritz take a deep breathe and listen to your intuition. Sometimes our emotions cloud judgment and radicalism.
Coming to terms that this life is just a battle with the seen and unseen. We fight each other, not knowing we are truly fighting ourselves. Learning the world is a playground of ruin, and my livelihood is in the hands of my unseen self. Realizing that I have to seek higher reasoning, that I have to return my belief of being my own god, and allow God to govern my life. This fight is not easy but I am determined to overcome the principalities of this world.
Most times we always get so busy with our daily schedule that we put aside any goals or aspirations that we have for ourselves. A wise man once told me that it is very important that we set an intent every day for the things that we would like to manifest. Rather it’s getting up in the morning and telling yourself you’re beautiful, or simply making sure that you do at least five sit ups a day is a great start to setting the tone for what you expect and want out of your day. My challenge for you today or even for this week is for you to set an intent for something that you truly want to transpire. When you wake up in the morning think about how you want your day to turn out. Set your intent and expect your day to transform the way that you envisioned. The more we set affirmations the quicker will see results!
Life throws us many curve balls. Some are minor, some are major, and some are just unexpected pit stops in our journey to success. This year I was thrown many curve balls. I got distracted, I got depressed, I even got down on my luck. I start picking up bad habits and falling back into old ways. Throughout it all. God still kept his hand covered over me, even when I didn’t deserve it. I can honestly say that no matter my downfalls, I still made it through, and I exceeded past every obstacle. Most times in life when we know we are not living right, and we are fully aware of it we tend to live in guilt, wondering when the next boulder will fall on top of our heads, but as I’ve grown I’ve learned that we can not think that way. We are humans, humans that have the ability to create our own realities. Due to our trial and errors we are given yet another chance to make amends, and be better than before. We have to numb ourselves of all the pain and negativity, and just push pass it all to reach our goals. If you want to live better, than do better. Once again we have the ability to change our mindsets from “I can’t”, to “Yes the fuck I can”. We have to stop being afraid of defeat and claim our victory. I’m also learning that there has never been a better time to turn over the leaf in our lives, and try something new. It’s time to be innovative, think differently, live differently. Odds are, most people who feel unhappy, simply do nothing real to change their state of emotion. If we tried just a little harder to appeal to our spirits instead of our flesh, we would really see the difference in our well being. So turning over the leaf? What’s that mean? We’ve tried the New Years resolutions, and that’s normally thrown out the window by the end of the week. Let’s try something more, how about setting the tone each week, day, month with a goal that will keep you aligned on your plan of living righteously. Rather its’ monthly, weekly, bi-weekly, start by acknowledging things in your life that are not suiting you and pin-point it to change it. If we never face our skeletons we will always live in fear, but if we aim to finally fight against these transgressions, we will prevail and conquer the enemy once and for all. Sometimes you just really have to step out of faith, and trust God and his mission to lead your life, but you have to be willing to change habits and make living right a priority. It’s always easier said than done, but you only have one life to live, and so many chances. Let’s work together to make the best of this journey, I invite all who read this to walk with me as I practice healthier living spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. It’s just time to be great, and God is waiting for you to walk into your blessings. If there is anything that is bothering you, haunting you, and just simply tugging you do away with it and let God wipe away all your tears. It’s time to be GREAT, believe in yourself and all that you are capable of, and God will handle the rest.
Sometimes you have to sacrifice to gain. This week I began to fast for the Lord because all I’ve ever done is make a thousand mistakes yet he’s redeemed me everytime. This last mistake was quite terrible, & id normally revert to regret and shame, but this time God but on my heart to fast. Now I’ve never really fasted, well at least not successfully. So I knew this would be a challenge. After I sinned for the hundredth time I knew I had to do something different to turn from my selfish, ignorant ways. God loves us so much that he’d forgive us till our very last breath, he cleansess our mind and body. So what is a simple sacrifice of food or a habit of ours to merely compensate for all the wrong we’ve ever done to him. This is my second day of fasting and though it’s very difficult I’ve never had so much peace of mind, & I swear God is speaking to me clearer than ever. Sometimes God allows sin to happen to bring us unto salvation, & grant us new beginnings. Sometimes all Gods wants is to see if we are truly willing to sacrifice, yet he sacrificed his son so that we would be able to come to him and allow him to wash away all our sins.