Love Internal

Love is something you can’t see.

Love is something no one can take away.

See you loved me with your eyes.

I loved you with my heart.

I despised my self love, to give you all I had.

My love wasn’t enough for you, my love was never enough to begin with.

See you never loved me, you lusted for me.

You loved my corpse, you never loved my heart.

You never knew my spirit.

I unloved myself for you.

You left me empty.

You left me dark.

But it’s my fault, I neglected myself for you, I didn’t see my worth so I continued to suck myself dry.

To all the men I’ve ever loved.

I still love you but I love myself more.

-Sidneymcqueen

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I ate a taco 🌮

So I’ve been three months pescatarian 🐠. Going strong in my new way of life, until recently I got really sick. Started off as what I thought was small cold, turned into a gruesome stomach ache. Days go by and I’m undergoing severe cramps. Wth is wrong with me, is what I’m thinking. To speed the story up, I lost my appetite for about 2 days, didn’t eat a thing. My cramps and bloating subsided but not enough for me to pick up an appetite. I come home my mom’s like you need to eat “real” food. So yoooo my mom makes like the BEST tacos, she offers me some I’m like nahhh. So she proceeds to text me (yeah I’m in the next room, and yes I still stay with my parents post grad, haha), “you want my last taco?”. You guys it was a beef taco. I come out the room to temptation. I’m like you know what! It won’t hurt let me see if this sparks my appetite and hits the spot! I ate the taco, and created a debate in my mind as to if I should indulge in more. So after my mind starts telling me you’re gonna get sick, shortly after my taste buds and body agree, yuck it doesn’t even take like mom’s old tacos. I instantly regretted my decision, but at the same time it was more of an affirmation that my change of lifestyle was well worth it and maybe I should stick to it!

My point is, if you are going for something in your life rather it’s a change of diet, practicing abstinence, picking up a new hobby, etc, never let any one or any circumstance discourage you from obtaining your goal. Nine times out of ten when we indulge we end up feeling dissatisfied and upset with our decisions. Everyone slips up at times, but minimize your negligence so you may maximize and benefit from your goals!

P.s. I’ll stick to my shrimp tacos 😋

Peace,

Sidneymcqueen

Classes 


It’s that time of the year again! School has begun, and it’s time to get back focused on those books! It’s very difficult to go from hanging out all summer, to organized time slots, & all those assignments. You keep reminding yourself that it is all worth it and you’re one step closer to your goal! Well that’s what I’m telling myself at least, going into my last year of college. It hasn’t been easy but it gets to a point where you just want to do your absolute best. This is the time where you prove that you can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. Sometimes we go through obstacles to strengthen ourselves, once we’ve struggled for a length of time, we realize that we don’t want to continue down the same path. You ask yourself what can I do differently this time. How can I better myself? Each semester brings about an opportunity for improvement, to prove to yourself your capabilities. Don’t dread going into the work/school week, change your mindset as to how you can shine through everything you are assigned. SHINE this school year! Prove to yourself you are a winner! It takes a lot of hard work and time but it is worth showing yourself how great you are!