Fire

Ashes burn as I inhale your scornful words, your judgements slurs. Your eyes cut into my soul, as I try to avoid your stare. Your neglect ignites the fire that burns in my pores, as I try to put it out. The smoke clouds my surroundings as you confuse my soul, into playing your dirty games. I try to put you out with anything I can find. I stop, drop, and roll to stop the fire that attaches to my skin. I run and run away from your toxins as I find my cool deep cave of serenity and peace. I shall hide there until the fire is out. I shall find my peace and water the hot ground. I inhale your poison yet my lungs work their hardest to push you out. I fall to the ground with exhaustion, but never shall I gain defeat for I have watered the very ground you set on fire. 

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The fight of sin 

Where do we draw the line? God gives us so many chances, each and every day sin after sin, and then some always issuing us more get out of jail free cards even though we don’t deserve it. It’s get to a point where we as humans abuse our free will by choosing sin. I’ve realized going back and forth, back and forth, back and forth is like poison to our spirits. It throws and shifts our whole equilibrium off, and when things start happening that’s not in our best interest, we get upset and call on God even though it was our own doing. Sin is an addiction like none other. Better yet sin is addiction, it is the clinging of bad spirits and habits that ultimately aim to destroy us. Time after time I’ve built myself up spiritually, only to fall weak at the hands of temptation, letting myself down every time. By the grace of God I love that he loves me unconditionally, and will continue to forgive and strengthen me all of my days. Because of this grace we take God for granted, I’ve done it so many times, I feel as if I’ve used up all of my get out of jail free cards. God is a forgiving God, but we as his children have to take charge and cut ourselves off from sin. We have to really want to dig deep inside to figure out what is causing us to easily fall off track, to turn away from righteousness. This past year I’ve been battling some heavy demons inside of myself, when in seclusion I would be strong as a rock, but when around others I would easily fall in temptation. Each time I would tell myself you have to fight harder! Soon enough I found this as a repeat of the same ole record. Deep down inside I know that my spirit so desperately wants to be free of this sin, she screams to me at times for me to stop hurting myself. So the question is how do we stop these demons dead in their tracks? How can we just throw in the towel and walk away? We owe to it God to make that much of a sacrifice especially since he continually does that for us everyday! Of course it’s easier said than done, but God has the power to strengthen us to fight against these demons we’re consumed by. As 2017 is taking place this is a great time to look into yourself and recognize what’s hurting you, & ask God to remove it from your spirit. Sometimes we carry so much baggage we don’t even realize how light our spirit really is. God knows our faults and our weaknesses and what I’ve realized is that we can’t just stop ourselves from sin, we have to allow God to come in and block out our transgressions. We are weak but in the lord we have all power. Shake yourself of these negative energies, people, habits, addictions, hurt, confusion, remorse, regret, etc and allow God to work. All God wants to see is that there is a fight in you! We have to continue to build ourselves up stronger each time we fall, so we may stand strong against the enemy and finally win the war. Victory is inside of every last one of us, and recognizing our downfalls is the first step to walking into a new life. 

I AM

I am beautiful.

I am loved. 

I am smart.

I am strong. 

I am determined. 

I am GOD fearing.

I am kind.

I am selfless. 

I am creative.

I am determined.

I am unique.

I am love. 

I am crazy.

I am vibrant.

I am a finisher.

I am unconventional. 

I am optimistic.

I am a realist. 

I am proud.

I am independent.

I am awesome.

I am powerful.

I am intuitive.

I am a ruby.

I am a flower.

I am success. 

I am famous.

I am words.

I am truth. 

I am ME.

I am evolution. 

Conflict 


I am fighting for my life

Fighting for the right to be free

I’ve been kicked and bruised 

Misused and abused

By my own confliction

I have sunken to an all time low

Wishing desperately for growth 

I am my own vice 

Fighting for virtue in this life

I keep falling

I keep trying to get back up again 

Only to fall back on my face

But the bruises of my heart will repair

I will not continue to be in dispair 

I will rise to the occasion

I will not be phased by your persuasion

I see the light it shines bright

Ready to illuminate my soul 

New beginnings I shall forego 

I choose a path of growth 

I can no longer be in conflict with my soul 

🌻

 

healthy mind= healthy body

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Working out isn’t the easy task to complete in our busy chaotic lives, but over the years God has revealed to me how vital it is to become one with mind and body. Recently I fell off track with my normal workout routines, and eating habits. On top of that I caroused in social activities such as drinking. Soon thereafter I began to feel sick and down. This soon led to me feeling resentment for my previous actions. I realized that when you fall off track from seeking your ultimate goal, you retract back to old habits that cause sluggardness, procrastination, sexual immorality, depression, and unhealthy eating habits, and our spirit suffers even more affecting our mind. When our spirit is not being fulfilled due to our distractions, it tends to send us signals through our body such as sickness or stress induced reactions. Long story short, after my pitfall I began to recuperate, and get back on track because I knew I could not soak in misery.When I went back to the gym after a 2 week recession, I gain 15 pounds! I was so shocked, even though I noticed my stomach being bloated from my bad food choices and alcohol. I then told myself I will not go back to this place, of practically poisoning my body excessively after going so long without giving in. I aim for good health, because your body is the shell of the mind and you have to protect its brilliance. It is important that we all aim for our absolute best, and striving for a healthy body that doesn’t consume itself with the filth of the world is the best choice. I know everyone has their setbacks and obstacles, but it is possible to push through to be the best “you”, your mind is capable of.


I try not to be self centered.

I try to listen more than I speak. 

I try to conform.

I am tired of trying. 

I am tired of acting this role. 

I want to be self evolved for a moment.

I want to focus on becoming all I can be.

I want to be  meet the true person that’s inside of me. 

I want to be free.

I want to strictly rely on me.

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